{MIA}

I haven't posted in awhile because i have been in the hospital. My mom is here helping to take care of me and the boys while i recover. I was in the hospital for 5 days. Sure, it may sound bad to some of you, but it was a nice break....even though i was in pain, i didn't have any responsibilities. Momhood is hard. What can i say. Anyway, i was in a lot of pain, went to the hospital and stayed in the emergency room for about 12 hours before they admitted me into the hospital. When i had my appendix taken out 2 years ago they stapled my appendix....i don't understand it, but all i know is that i had staples in there from the surgery, which is normal. Somehow the staples came loose. One got caught on another and one staple pinched off my intestine. So, i had an obstructed bowel. I had a ct scan, a few x-rays, doped up on lots of morphine and laying in bed and watching tv. The pain of the obstructed bowel, before they could give me med's, was pretty intense. It was worse than labor pains. Not fun. I am glad it is over. Glad my mom is here. Glad i had a break from responsibilities. Glad to be home. Glad for a husband who is so helpful, loving and caring. I realized some things while i was away. 1. I am taking on too much. I was exhausted and didn't realize it til i had my 5 day hospital stay. My life is sooooo busy. I was in the hospital thinking about my life before i went in the hospital and i thought to myself, "How in the WORLD was i doing all that? How did i not have a break down yet?!!!" 2. I am tired of blogging, tired of the internet. It is not being what it used to be for me. I won't be blogging much anymore. I want to get all my blogs turned into books and then be done. 3. My dream of becoming a nurse is more alive than it ever has been. I want to become a nurse so bad and am determined to do it b/c if i don't, i will regret it. I know i will. Now i just need encouraging so that i can stay positive in that i am SMART enough to do it. :) 4. I want life to slow down. So, i am going to try to make that happen. 5. I like my life and who i am.

Anyway, i am fine. It is a freak accident, what happened. The doc said, "If i had thrown a bunch of staples into your stomach i still wouldn't expect this to happen". I missed my sister-in-laws wedding, which i was supposed to take pics at. Yeah. Stinks. I was her photographer AND i missed her wedding! I am so bummed, but things happen.